Existential Crisis

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I’ve got a confession to make: I’m really struggling to get back into the post-holiday groove. As much as I want to be in the RA-RA-let’s-go-get-em spirit of the new year, I’m having a hard time getting there.

I spent a week in Hawaii over the holidays where life is much simpler. Coming back to my over-obligated, over-programmed world, a lot of which is spent in the office, is a stark contrast. I can’t help but wonder, who is winning? The happy people I met on the beach who surf everyday, have odd jobs to make ends meet and don’t have/want much, OR the hyper busy, always striving for MORE success, busy bodies here in Los Angeles? I would love to hear what you think…

Meanwhile, I’m still dressed like I’m on island time, no pants and all.

Wearing: Doen sweater, vintage skirt, Kate Spade bathing suit (underneath the skirt),  Janessa Leone ‘Aisley’ hat and Jimmy Choo Marlin boots 





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  1. Being in the I call it the Hallway which I call the not knowing is sometimes a little uneasy. I allow myself to stay there rather than fight it because if I fight it I only hurt myself so I just allow myself to be where I am without judgement and the answer always comes.I continue my meditation practice and self care in the process.

  2. The surfers are totally winning, no doubt about that. However, I’ve thought about it several times and there’s always one conclusion: would you be able to have the odd job, say no to your career, pretend that you cannot achieve the great things you know you can? I wouldn’t. That’s why I always return to the city… :-/

  3. All the time I come from a holiday somewhere nice and hot. I spend days in depression and constantly thinking and planning the next get away. So, I guess it s normal you feel that way but you will slowly get back on track dont worry. Start by adding the pants ( just joking, you look great)


  4. A week in Hawaii sounds like absolute bliss. I wasn’t away on holiday recently, but I’ve found the expectations around New Year really ahrd to deal with. Half of me wants to chill out like I was doing over the holidays, but the other half of me wants to work silly hours and pursue every single opportunity I can find

    Steph – http://www.nourishmeblog.co.uk

  5. I didn’t even go to Hawaii or anywhere tropical and I feel your pain. Just started a new job and the city is so cold here. I realized that workplace culture makes a huge difference (i.e. the people who you work with). This is a key element that can keep things interesting.

  6. Girl, I am feeling the EXACT SAME WAY. I was really struggling the other day – feeling those post-holiday blues and extra anxiety. I carved out some time to work out (riding that endorphin high), and spend some quality SLOW time at home…cooking with my husband, eating dinner by candlelight, and reading side by side in bed. It made me feel SO much better and more refreshed for the rest of the week. We got this!

  7. I can relate to your post and often experience similar emotions when returning from a trip. I think it’s great to be able to identify what part of that experience resonates with you in order to discover how to introduce it into other parts of your life. I’m recognizing the value in slowing down and appreciating the moments of stillness that are often sought through holidays and beach time but are sometimes overlooked in our everyday life. It feels like a process but one worth striving for! Thanks for sharing!

  8. I felt the exact same way when i returned from 2 weeks in Hawaii last spring. My super stressful job seemed so silly (wardrobe buyer for film, actors are annoying ) and i also felt overwhelmed by all my stuff! i think i got rid of half my wardrobe when i got back

  9. I completely feel the exact same way. I for one, am always battling my meditative, yogi soul, with my go-getter buisness mind. What I am working on always, is balance and “NGAF!” At the end of the day we need to strive to find what it is that is bringing us joy in our soul. Whatever it is and try and make that thing a habit. I am also a huge fan of the feminine sheer dress/skirt and the body suit look! You are rockin’ it girl.

  10. I was just talking about this last night. “What would life be like if I didn’t have any talent whatsoever and I was completely happy just living day to day?”

    I feel like there has to be balance.
    Love this!


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